I have decided to write a open letter to my past self. I was looking at old photos/journals earlier this month and the nostalgia made my heart ache at the chance of reliving the times captured in those photos and journals. as the years go on, I remember less and less of these times.
I decided to write to the version of myself 5 1/2 years ago.
Your entire life is about to change forever. So much is in store, but stop. Live in the moment. This will be the last time you live at home with and around family. This will be the last year with the group of friends that you have. Cherish everything.
You may feel that your are trapped at times, but the truth is – you are absolutely free. Free of worry, responsibility, routine, and more. Free to stay out on a lake dock until 5:30am jamming on an out-of-tune guitar with the best of company. Free to experiment with your interests because you have all the time in the world. Free to make friends despite being an introvert. Free to not a morning person…
You feel that you aren’t great, but there is so much that you can do. Trust yourself. Don’t do things because that is what you are told or what everyone is doing. If you don’t 100% like your degree or the way your are living, change it. If you aren’t sure what you want to do – Don’t continue to dump money into college until you are ready. Explore. Think outside the box.
Stop hating yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. doubting yourself will only make you feel worse. You don’t realize how much your future self would kill to still look like you ;).
You are about to face a lot of challenges… Your heart will be broken, but you will bounce back. You will become homeless multiple times, but you are resourceful. You will fail at school more than once, but you will find what you are meant to do. You will face a horrible situation that will cause you to have PTSD and nightmares for years to come, but you will endure.
Mostly what I want to say is trust in your gut and never settle for less. You don’t realize what a hard worker you are until you look back.